i am sick. :(
the last time i was sick was.. july 2008. hahaha!
okay but it hurts alot. my head is spinning, nausea. my tummy is hurting, my nose is dripping (okay gross), my throat is suppressing, and this morning i just felt like.. dying.
but i'm pretty much alright now within the confinement of my own room and with the medication swimming in my bloodstream. yup yup crazy crazy.
My arm pretty much hurts alot too. thanks to the huge load of form five books i had to lug home. (17 text books! do the math!) and it feels exactly like the time i was playing on the boxing wii game (really competitive, scary shit)
i think i downed 5 litres of water and a litre of this strangely, surprisingly good chinese herb things that my mom brewed for me aww :) it's supposedly a really good remedy or whatever so okay.
this is such a procrastinating blog post. i've been here for like almost 2 hours and i keep on straying away to chat with people on MSN and such :( maybe i shouldn't even publish this post. :(
anyway no pictures because i am... a patient? now isn't that a very good excuse?
goodnight :)
Thursday, 5 November 2009
Can we bring yesterday back around? cuz i know how i feel about you now
Wednesday, 4 November 2009
Sunday, 1 November 2009
is it better is it worse? are we sitting in reverse? feels like we're going backwards
okay you guys are either going to laugh at me or throw high heels at me.
hahah i actually feel really reluctant to update my blog, and.. why?
because i actually quite enjoy coming into my blog with a huge ass close up picture staring at me. it sure beats words, right?
okay *holds shield* hahaha don't hit me. I'm just a little bit less verbal. But okay, that was just a little of my insight.
anyway actually, i'm super excited right now. like, super excited.
but i should probably talk about my Saturday first and foremost.
Me and Carena woke up at around noon and bummed around eating MORE junk. seriously its like i gained an elephant overnight. She left at around 4pm i think? and i continued bumming around eating MORE junk. remembered i was supposed to go for heaven or hell at night? well i didn't. i went for a manicure instead. har har. it's metallic violet by the way, and VERY PRETTY :)
time passed on by.. and by 5AM i was dozing off.
I was supposed to go for Jazby and Christine's wedding today!!!!!
ugh. shit happened. I didn't have transport and i cbf to ask other people to pick me up, that would be so.. inconvenient. so i skived it, sigh so now i'm here. with a full face of makeup. a manicure that i'll have to wash off tonight, (school). but the happy thing is..
I'M WATCHING JENNIFER'S BODY LATER AT NIGHT.
i am so excited. i hope i'm not disappointed. wait, theres Megan Fox. obviously i won't be disappointed.
this turmoil boiling up in me is like when i was about to watch Harry Potter. i don't know, i'm just a big fan.
so... yes. i'm excited. kind of. in a way.
it also just hit me straight in the eye that time is passing me by.. like.. meteorites. sorry i couldn't find any suitable metaphor. could you honestly believe it, it's already November?
November.. to me, it's really late. i know, captain obvious right? but really. it's the 11th month of the year. this is pretty crazy. time seems to pass fast this year, is it just me or are you guys having the same insight? i'll be leaving the country in another 3 weeks! *yessss*
i know, people say : appreciate time. appreciate now. So... okay. I'll try. i wish i have a pensieve, or a bottle which i can store up my emotions and use them when it's appropriate.
I wish i could store up the happiness in that bottle. so i could use them by small dosages so i wouldn't be such a melancholic person. Yes... hard to believe, but i DO have my happy moments you know. i'm not always this sappy person.
so yes, i would like to bottle it up. and i would set up a cabinet putting all my bottled up emotions inside and in the morning i would go, Hmmmmm which emotion should i use today? I'm going to a funeral. so i should use the 'sad' emotion. *takes bottle out*
okay. just an example. :) but you get my drift.
so this year.. i've been happy! of course. the happiest day.. is probably, hmm this is a hard question. probably a day in september. i forgot which date it was, but i remembered i was blissfully happy because of what some people did. it's such a small gesture, but it totally made my YEAR.
ugh i talk too much. i give out too many details sometimes. which...sucks.
even though it IS my blog and all.
well, bye! hope you had a nice halloween and have a nice sunday night x :)
Saturday, 31 October 2009
and the world is around us, won't stop spinning tonight
must be all the ruffles and chocolates me and carena whacked last night.
halloween.. to me,
it's kind of a bad reminiscent. i used to have a bad halloween and it was not at all memorable.
shit. i think i'm coming down with something. shit. i think i'm gonna miss the party tonight. shit.
lets keep our high heels crossed.
anyway i was a kitty meow meow this year :) AND I TOTALLY LOOK LIKE ONE. okay? hahah.
Friday, 30 October 2009
Sun down, friday night, uptown, city light
this might make alot of you happy.
i think.
i just got to know about my results. and i felt like blogging.
i am officially a dumbass, imbecile, ninkenpoop, idiot, pea brainer, shallow thinking, stupid, foolish, silly, illiterate.
i am not even exagerrating here, i know i tend to do that alot.
this is pretty depressing. i'm staring at this blank screen and striving to think of things thats not going to make me want to doubt myself.
but i am doubting myself. my subconscious knows that i could have done better.
you know what i was doing during the exam periods?
i was being very nonchalant about it. i didn't know the severity of it. i do now.
i've been disappointing so many people.
i don't like disappointing people. i'm often the one who gets disappointed, not the other way around.
theres nothing i can do about it.
the one person i want to rant this to is being mean. being inconsiderate. being unaware of my throbbing, blood laden emotions.
he is very unemotional. he begs to differ though. but i know better than that.
so it would be no point talking. pretending to care takes up alot of effort and i can't be fucked to be disappointed again so i don't have anyone to talk to.
Alot of people want to share your joy. alot of people want to party with you, when you're free spirited and fun and don't have a care for the world - only caring if your heels matches your dress.
not many people want to share your sorrow. to be there when you need a shoulder to cry on, to be a good listener, to give out sincere compliments without overshadowing my flaws.
no.. not many people. i'm not going to say none, there are a few.. in my life which i'm thankful for.
but like aforementioned him, i put up too much hope and when it crushes it's not pretty.
why can't he be a little bit more sensitive? caring?
why can't I be a little bit more understanding? less sensitive?
we're not compatible.
Wednesday, 28 October 2009
i am exhausted. but have you ever had one of those moments when you're very tired but your mind's telling you No, No, I don't want to sleep. not just yet. not this soon. this is one of those moments for yours truly.
i went to get a pedicure today :)
i'm sooo ticklish it's not even funny. but i have hot pink toes now. despite one toe being smeared.. my own clumsiness. but it was nice, pretty relaxing.
i also watched Pandorum! finally. :) another one of those science fiction movies. I have arm marks where Carena was clutching my arm so tightly. I do have to admit, some scenes were pretty gruesome. and i'm never one of those sort of person who can take unpleasant shocks in a calm way. But, very tolerable.
i also bought things! along with my shopping partners!
today, is supposed to be a happy, full of smiles, - reconcilation day. We're gonna proclaim our undying matters of heart and sleep with a silly, lopsided grin tonight. No. Not working.
i am disappointed. how?
how to deal with it? i need someone to teach me.
tomorrow.. school again. I'm not complaining.
I'm happy.
Monday, 26 October 2009
cause i'll be there, at the back of your mind. from the day we met till the very last night
hello yello. *big wide grin teehee*
my weekends was pretty buuuuuusy. to the extent that i only had a few hours of sleep, which sucks.
yesterday was relaxing though! in a very zen-like kind of way. :) i went shopping! where else? at my favourite place to shop.. The Gardens! and mid valley lololol. I don't wanna type out everything i purchased cause if i did so i would probably flood this place.
but the high of spending money is my only ecstasy now. oh gosh i sound like some drug addict. i'm not. not really anyway.
but i stopped by borders and got a few books as well! :) which made me happy.. something crossed out of my to-do list,. i got The Time Traveller's Wife! like. finally. i know. right. and undeniably it's a very good book, very interestingly pieced together and is a refreshing alternative from my usual catty chic lits i read. But it might be a little dull for people whom only has immense interest in reading about other people sleeping with other people. (cough gossip girl cough) har har. but it's good, if you have the interest. :)
alright besides that, i was also in a pretty grouchy mood yesterday of reasons unstated. i don't know. i'm despicable like that. i can't control it. it just comes in tidal waves and i'm shamelessly rocked to and fro with it. any effort put into stopping it has no avail. but i'm not here to talk about deep things. today is a light and flighty day. right. of course.
it was compulsory to attend school today.. and yeah, look what am i doing here? blogging for you guys. har har. joking guys, i had a really bad cold today when i woke up. probably side effects. HARHAR. so i had to skip it.. it was apparently some stupid registration for spm or something like that and the teacher even threatened to call our parents if we're absentees on this day. er, go on - call my parents. that'll save me some energy into explaining things to you. so please do.
i'm also not happy about the fact that the every damn time i press my friend requests button on facebook my whole desktop lags for a total of a minute. unhappy. i'm angsty. i'm hard to please. well, not really. i crave for the sedate excitement of domesticity. not high far ones. not on a materialistic sense of it. more of,.. the the simplicity of happiness. of gratefulness. of being eternally elated no matter what kind of messed up things would happen.
it sounds impossible beyond the realm of possibilities, but it's actually doable. i have my angsty moments. i have my grateful moments. i have my frisson moments. i have my stoning moments. it's all about catching me at the right moment and having the ability to change it to ; your moment.
oh gosh. i didn't mean to ramble on. once you start, the fingers and mind would coordinate perfectly into crafting a sentence that nobody understands but only you do.
i just need.. a getaway. a rendezvous. an invacant sanctuary, with only unlimited supply of aspartame and tonnes of books to keep me company.
hmmm.. where is Pei Jiun getting to? i don't know..i could be running low on aspartame in my bloodstream. or it could be caused of the 12 hour restrain of social communication. maybe it's my estrogen and progesterone hormones acting up, or it could be simply that i'm missing some people far, far away from me.
Saturday, 24 October 2009
and i'm terrified but i'm not leaving
no more daily routines of studying before i sleep! now i can concentrate on things i haven't been doing much lately!
watch TV! i remembered i used to watch alot of Starworld last time. perhaps time to light up the spark?- catch up on serieses like GG & Desperate housewives!
- learn to cook better
read more chic lit. YAYYYY happy- rekindle relationships.. ( edit, i can't do this. )
i went out with two of my siblings today! and Car did alot of shopping. :P which makes her really happy har har :) also stopped by Rachel's pool party. :) Happy Belated Birthday :)
and my legs are really sore from walking :( not in a mood for talking.
i'll see you next time :)
love always.. x
Thursday, 22 October 2009
BM 1, BM 2, English 1, English 2, History 2, Chemistry 1, Chemistry 2, Chemistry 3, Biology 1, Biology 2, Biology 3, Physics 2, Physics 3, Additional Mathematics 1, Additional Mathematics 2, Modern math 1, Modern math 2, Moral, Sivics, History 1, Physics 1, P.E
i would soon be reunited with my loveeeeeee :) *teehee*
seriously, history- is like a piece of cake isn't it? especially since i went through the subjectives. OBJECTIVES are gonna be so much more simpler ain't it? and physics, oh gosh physics. since i went through chemistry today and survived, what is physics anyway? it's gonna be a breeze. and PE... don't get me started on PE, its crazy unnecessary. so i don't need to study tonight right? i mean, it's gonna be simple..
HA HA HA . im joking guys.
Wednesday, 21 October 2009
things get better, through whatever :)
I am.. actually really happy right now. :) like things are gonna be alright.
my mf-ing finals are gonna be over in 2 days, and the remaining subjects are Chemistry 1, Sivics (crazy that we have to take em), Physics 1, History1, and PE. (crazy that we have to take PE too!)
so it's actually not that much of pressure as it was a few weeks ago. oh the joy! the glee! the elation!
pedicure ASAP!- manicure :) a french one would be impossible, since my nail are so short right now. except if i get extensions.
dye my hair.
ditto a haircut
need to make a stop @ M.A.C- ditto the apple shop! :) *happy*
- i need to get new eyelashes
ditto new bag! preferably lilac in color. and leather inspired. OKAY ITS FROM TOPSHOP D:new flats. i can't keep wearing heels.- facial. desperately need one.
i need to watch Jennifer's body :)- ditto Sorority row. with someone :) i'll download it since it's not in cinemas anymore i think..
- i need to get a hot pink iphone cover.
continuous supply of diet coke- im searching for a new camera. preferably one that has really good internal built in lightning. No more sony cameras, they kind of suck. (my opinion only (: )
- i need a new laptopppp. the current one im using is kind of cuckoo, the screen goes red at times. freaking crazy. i'm thinking of the macbook air. it has a good webcam ;)
- i'll have to get birthday presents... O:
- i have to exercise more! my heart's so weak i can't even describe it.
i need to stock up on chic lit!- get my eyebrows trimmed. like seriously. it's growing like a bush. HAHAHAHA
- get rhinoplasty. HA HA i wish. :(
- pierce my tragus :)
get a pair of jeggings :) so cute!!!get this top- 46 KG
Monday, 19 October 2009
freaking awesome. its almost 7AM here, i popped a sleeping pill at 5AM (TO NO AVAIL, i'm still wide awake. I'm immuned to melatonin!) Yes.. i know taking melatonin supplements is not doing very good for my health. But i do plenty of things that puts my health in danger anyway so screw that. But I've done some research and apparently the biggest side effect is 'nightmares and vivid dreams', 'dizziness', and 'irritability'! which has to be accurate since i have all of that occuring. But another one of the side effect is 'decreased sex drive' HAHAH i think thats not spot on then. Har har joking guys.
i'm browsing through the happiest and most cheerful pictures ever of The Best Friend over in Australia.. :) was muck-up day for Fel and the pictures are all so gleeful.. :) everyone's laughing and fooling around and it makes me so happy watching them that it doesn't really matter that i'm stuck here with my own misery. Oh, oops. Pessimism leaking out. Alright anyway.. I really do feel very cheered up by the fact that at least, the people I adore are having an elated time. Through pictures, they all look like they don't have anything between them, and their relationship is just..simple. :) No judging, no backstabbing, no gossips behind backs.. just.. buddies.
and thats heart warming. when can i ever have that?
maybe i already do... :)
goodnight you guys.
Sunday, 18 October 2009
hello. i just cleaned my VERY..messy room and now it's spanking tidy and i feel better blogging (and studying, of course) in such a peaceful, serene, clean environment. wtf.
anyway.
in the interphase of meiosis, the cell replicates its DNA and duplicate its chromosomes.
after replication, each chromosome consists of two identical sister chromatids, held together by of course, a centromere. the cell now has twice the number of genetic material, but the same number of chromosomes as before. The chromosomes are not condensed, therefore are not visible under the microscope.
on the other hand,
mitosis is the process of nuclear division which results in the formation of two genetically identical daughter nuclei. in the first stage of mitosis, prophase, the chromosomes condense and become tightly coiled, therefore visible underneath the microscope. Each chromosome consists of two identical sister chromatids, as said as before, and is joined together by a centromere. in the cytoplasm, spindle fibres begin to form between the centrioles. At the end of the prophase, the nucleolus dissapears and the nuclear membrane disintegrates.
on the second stage of mitosis, which is metaphase, the centromeres of all the chromosomes are lined up on the equator of the cell (in the middle) and the equotor is called the metaphase plate. The spindle fibres are now fully formed. Metaphase ends when the centromere holding the chromosomes divide.
furthermore, on the third stage of mitotic process : anaphase, as we said before, the chromosomes divide when the centromere separates. The sister chromatids are pulled apart from the opposite poles by the shortening of the spindle fibres that connect the chromosomes to the poles. The chromatids are now referred to as daughter chromosomes. Anaphase ends when the chromosomes reach the opposite poles of the cell separately.
at the very end of the mitotic process, telophase, it begins when both sets of chromosomes reach the opposite poles of the cell. The chromosomes start to uncoil and revert to their extended state (chromatin) again. (it condensed in prophase, so now it's unviewable through the light microscope). The spindle fibres disappear and a new nuclear membrane forms around each set of chromosomes. The nucleolus which disappeared in prophase forms again. like magic. The process of mitosis is now complete.
OKAY YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT IM THINKING OF ?
LIKE THINKING OF RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW?
AND WHENEVER I THINK OF IT MY HEART DOES THIS SORTA SOMERSAULTS AND PALPITATIONS?
LIKE I CAN'T STOP THINKING OF IT
DAY AND NIGHT
ughghghghghg. i wanna go forever 21 laaaaaaa
i even dreamed of it twice last night, once that i was shopping there with @lardeedum and the second time was that i was in Sunway Pyramid and i noticed forever21 closed down. (CHOIII TOUCH WOOD DFHJSH)
patience my young grasshoppah
Friday, 16 October 2009
if i could change your mind, that i'm not the loving kind
was us washing the girls' toilets for sivics project anyway. :)
which reminds me, has to be handed in next week someday! oh my gosh panic.
okay digress. :)
goooooodbye x
